I called Marissa yesterday to tell her about the break up.. and yes, she freaked as fuck. I was entirely collapse, I stuttered during the whole conversation. To be clear, I am afraid of Marissa. But I was glad that she wasn't mad at me. For a second.. it caught on my mind. "WAS I'M DRUNK DURING THE WHOLE RELATIONSHIP!" but yes. I didn't regretted knowing him. He was that 'Oh so cute Harry Potter boyfriend that I dreamed to have when I was young. But things didn't worked pretty well between us.
I tried to say something in return to show Marissa that I wasn't weak but nothing came out. I think of all these different things in my head but none of them seem to came out. I kept on silence during the whole conversation and let Marissa do the talking. But she seem not to care or maybe she doesn't know how to react to the news. A few minutes seems to be long.. I waited for her to speak.. But nothing came out from her mouth. For a second I thought my phone died or something. A few minutes later, she sigh *K I'm off to bed now. Bye. I was devastated. But its okay. It was my fault too.
