I keep my friends close but I keep my enemies closer. However that sentences could only be replace by this. By myself, I keep my best friends closer, my friends close but my enemies away. I couldn’t deal with ‘traitors’ whom I assume knew me better (supposedly) Couldn’t tell how it break my heart knowing how ridiculous I am letting myself be a scapegoat. Bashing with a tremendous conversation which caused an expecting cries. Satisfied myself with the cussing but it never did heal my wounded heart for the truth which has spilled upon me. Thank you for ‘be’ there in the time of ‘needs’, I appreciate your presences.
How can I release the feelings I had the experience I faced or the true tears that sheds? Non of that matters when you’d think it otherwise, when you’d think that is what I am, a girl with an attitude. If only you were in shoe sincerely said I have no plans of ‘intend’. You’ve compared me with your other experience you’d thought I am the same. You have set your mind so tight nothing could unfold it accept to listen with a heartache. Stories told sometimes it was nothing alike try to put it in a different version if you’d know I can be trusted. Where are you positively? Shot me with those accusing words which I can never bare to defend anymore. Left alone, wounded. Words keep on repeating how I’ve always done the forbidden things, and pointed out the ‘evidence’ you only see with your eyes but not with your heart. I knew what I am or what I do or what I’ve witnessed I never creating stories, all I did was opened my ears wider and listens and agreed and cried. I’ve empty my soul with no feelings try not to be vulnerable.
I am left with no choice, swallowed everything that I’ve been told. I am not acting like I am an angel I am a teenager and I made mistakes. What I can’t stand that I’ve been told about my actions which you should know better I’m the one whom been doing it. Your comments will never hurts me more than myself. Be strong.
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