A lesson from a bestfriend/lover.

As I walked to the world called real-life. This person who made my day turned out well.
Its been a sorrow. We didn't talk much. But at some point, he made me realize the value of life. The Questions kept pointing back. I've been cruel to my-self. Justify me, its my life. I asked, should I be here. "He told me something that answered all the questions that I've been wondering.

Hell, he's a person who's been holding on my back for such a long time. I wonder how would I be as he left, the burdens that will be hanging on my back. I can't accept that. I'm not that strong anymore. I believe that life is much easier with someone to help you. The moment I felt good is when I needed help.

There's some part of things that you can;t handle it on your own. The only thing that will help you to grow up a lil bit is by learning by your mistakes. I regret for what I did to my-self/to the world/& everbody. I can see that this is the phrase of growing up. I'm afraid of growing up and I'm not sure whether I'm ready for it. "Like who does?". Its the most worthless part of life- well maybe to me. But I haven't experience marriage, having kids, divorce & die. I would wish for a better life. "But you can't change destiny as he said-
His words made me think that " I'm not me. Who am I?. Should I be like this?. Things kept going on like crazy. I need answers X